Journal

Sunday, January 5 2025

Just realized I had the day wrong for my first entry of the year, hm. Unwavering professionalism over here.

Anyway, this will be pretty short honestly. Just wanted to let you know that I'm going to be redoing the website. From scratch. Yep. It'll look the exact same on the outside, but all the code will be done by me so I can have a complete understanding of my website, inside and out. When I first started this website I used sadgrl's template, and since then I've taken lots of built in stuff out and redone things to fit a certain aesthetic that I felt people would really enjoy. Thing is, I don't completely understand the mobile layout, and I also want all the comments to be tailored towards how I think, ya know?

I'm also going to be moving files around, rerouting things that should have been organized in folders ages ago, etc etc. Think of this as online spring cleaning. I'll hopefully have an even better understanding of html, css, and even javascript once I'm all done.

So yea. I'll see you all in a bit. Maybe I'll finally have enough questions when I'm back. Ha

(11:09pm)

Wednesday, January 1 2025

An instagram reel that I viewed on the toilet made me realize something very important today.

This year, 2025, will almost certain not be a "good one". Not a particularly hot take, but I'm just not going into this year with high hopes.

When I say that, I mean that I have always had a hard time feeling like I really needed to make any new years resolutions. Or write up any thing that I just had to accomplish. If time has proven anything to us, it's that things are only getting crazier. If you live in the United States like me, you should be very aware that this year has many bad things in store. That's all pretty surface level though.

The one thing I know for certain, is that I can control the level of content I want to make available to myself. I have control over what news reaches me.

Only I know what news is most important to me, and the limit that we have for how much bad we can take seeing each day. The current news cycle, is vicious. I don't care how much you are for one situation or the other, there is a point of no return. There is a point where the bad starts to seriously outway the good and affect your own well being and how you operate. You can support these causes, but please, please remember this: There is going to be so many horrible stories this year. You have to find the good near you and off your phone. Off the news. Keep in local. Keep it in communities you can ACTUALLY participate in physically. In-Person.

Stay sane. I'm serious. It's so damn easy to get lost in that shit. I've seen it. No matter how much "good" is in your heart. Everything in moderation. You are NOT immune to these things.

Every year is just a year. You can easily cherrypick the events that you actually care about to dictate if your year was good or not. It's not even worth comparing anymore.

I want to make it through this year, Alive. A genuine goal. That means something to me. I hope you all make it through too.

(11:35pm)