Hey.
I wasn't too sure how I wanted to go about this year end entry. I considered giving it various sections. Titling each one. Maybe even going month by month. Doesn't entirely feel right though. This has always been a stream-of-consciousness kind of thing. I've got a solid point A. It's just a matter of how I feel to B and C and so on so forth.
So, I'll start with some general stuff. 2025, in regards to everyone. All things considered, this year wasn't the best. I don't think too many people would disagree with that point. If you do, congrats. You had a great year, and that's awesome. I'm happy for you. In fact, I envy you. Sin be damned.
Taking a small look at all that's happened this year, I didn't realize how much I had forgotten. This isn't anything new, but it felt especially apparent this year. Entire pop culture moments, Political events, etc etc. Entering through one ear and out the other I guess. Doesn't help that major events are occuring several times a day sometimes. Information overload is a bitch. That, and I think I might actually have some form of memory loss but that's a topic for a later date.
Hard to forget that the President of the United States is a Pedophile though. Well, might as well slap the top 1% in there too. That made the last half of this year pretty interesting, I gotta say. Here we are though. Still going to work. Paying Bills. Moving along like the past month hasn't been feeding us article after tweet after instagram reel after news report about the crimes they've all committed and will seemingly get away with. Guess I shouldn't be too surprised. Many can't even decide if men and women can be friends. Many can't stop interacting with ragebait content. Many can't seem to understand that engaging with bad faith discussions for the sake of a funny dunk tweet, actually doesn't help anything. Many still can't get past the 30 layers of irony and sarcasm they've built up since 2020. So yea. I'm not too surprised that evil people seem to just get away with things.
We are painfully aware though. It's common for people to point out that we'll "move on from (x,y,z) in 1 week" and they'd be correct. It leads me to believe there's this ticking clock within society. Eventually, it will ring. Eventually. I can only hope. Until then, we must argue with bots on social media I guess.
Generative AI is a stain on this world and the future that I hope we still have to look forward to.
It's ruined my family.
It's ruining my job.
It's ruining my future career.
It's ruining the internet.
It's ruining the very meaning of being human.
Sometimes I'll walk by my parent watching a "news" video on youtube. With its script fed through an AI voicebot. Various generated images on the screen for whatever story they seemed to be genuinely interested in. I just. I don't know.
I'm not even sure if we can undo this all. I don't even want to think about that anymore.
I uh.
I wish I left home before things got so bad.
I've had time to think about it and, yea. I've had many chances at getting away from them. Getting a well paying job. Graduating. Many, Many chances over the course of 3-5 years now. Hell, maybe even 7 now.
I'd gladly fall into debt. Loan after loan. Just to get away from my mother and father.
They are...mentally taxing. Walking around eggshells with my mom. Forcing a smile for my dad.
Both my sisters have managed to basically escape them. Through college. The youngest will be leaving next year. I'll be left here. Haven't really thought about that till now. The implications. Ha.
My life this year hasn't been good. I had fun moments. I know I did. It's difficult to pinpoint moments in time though. Things just blend for me. Just makes it even harder for me to recall events. My trip to CEO this year was a highlight. Mostly because I was away from my family. The trip to Chicago was okay. The two shows I went to see we're pretty good as well. The times I was able to go to my biweekly tekken tournaments were highlights too.
The distance is nice. It's a barrier. Something I know they can't cross. I need that permanently.
I don't have any expectations or feelings going into this new year. There's plenty to distract myself with. As far as media goes. Besides that though, change? I uh, I don't know. Maybe I'll finally make that therapist appointment? Yea, maybe. That'd be something.
We'll see. Until then, I'm going to be gone. I already mentioned it in the previous journal entry but, I'd like to fully change the site. Not just the look either. It'll take sometime, but I don't mind. I'm hoping once I'm back I'll have a better understanding of html and css and I can really push the ideas I have for this site.
Thanks for sticking around if you're reading this. I don't have much going for me, but this is still nice.
See you all in a bit.